I AM THE MOTHER WHO WANTED A BABY

I was tagged by Laura Summers over at Laura’s Lovely Blog to write a post on “being the mother who….”

I wasn’t 100% sure what I was going to write. You see I was once falsely accused of being a ‘bad mum’ and although this was not the case, it knocked me back and even put doubts in my mind about what kind of mother I was. Now I can confidently say that I have always been a brilliant mother in whatever circumstances I have found myself. 

I’ve been a single parent with a newborn… it was not always easy but it was worth it! My daughter is the best. 

If you find yourself a single parent with a newborn, you may want to read A Letter To The Single Mom With A Newborn

I found the thought of this post quite scary and difficult at first but I persevered and here it is.

An honest and true reflection of who I really am as a mother.

I am the Mother who…

I am the mother who wanted a baby so badly, I had fertility treatment with my husband. (Now x husband)

I am the mother who could not produce milk and had to give up breast feeding at six weeks.

I am the mother who was sent back to work when baby was 4 months old.

I am the mother who quit work because I wanted to be with baby.

I am the mother who was physically separated from baby (by the controlling x husband as a form of abuse)

I am the mother who was spat on and slapped and abused by her husband.

I am the mother who ran away with baby and got a protection order.

I am the mother who then put my baby into childcare to help me cope.

I am the mother who left her family and friends in NewZealand to make baby safe in the UK.

I am the mother who raised baby as a single mum for five years.

I am the Mother who faced injustice and was wrongly separated from baby.

I am the mother who struggled but survived.

I am the mother who put on weight and ate her emotions.

I am the mother who then lost all the weight through healthy eating and exercise.

I am the mother who then met the man of her dreams

I am the mother who married and gave baby a loving step father.

I am the mother who collapsed after the wedding and was diagnosed with adrenal failure.

I am the mother who stayed in bed for two years due to serious illness.

I am the mother who decided enough is enough and began blogging about my life.

I am the mother who is fighting to get well so I can be my best self.

I am the mother who won the Bronze MumpreneurUK Website Award in 2015.

I am the mother who also won the 2015 MumpreneurUK Voice Award in 2015

I am the Mother who is still fighting and fundraising to get well.

I am the Mother of my child. I will always be her Mother.

I am the Mother hear me roar!