Sometimes people can take there bodies for granted. When I was younger I would love to walk for miles. I would walk to school, to uni, to work. I even walked while pregnant. Then once I gave birth and became unwell, I lost the ability to walk for more than a few seconds.
I’ve thought about going out in the wheelchair with my husband, simply to walk together but it’s not the same. I hate him having to push me. I’m heavy and the chair is big, pushing my chair is exhausting for my hubby. I can’t stand using a wheelchair but if I don’t I will get so far and then feel like collapsing. I really don’t have a choice.
I wonder what difference it would make if I bought an electric wheelchair? They cost a lot of money and it wouldn’t fit in our house or car. Eventually we will need to move to a more suitable property. My normal chair cant even fit through our doors in our home they are so slim. Using a chair or should I say – having to use a chair is annoying and frustrating and at times upsetting.
People stare and look at you. Others look away quickly. It’s as if i’m no longer normal and then others look and pull weird faces. i’m still the same person, I’m just ill and fatigued and unable to stand for too long.
I wonder what a difference it will be when I’ve lost more weight. Will I have more energy if my BMI is normal or will I be just as unwell? I guess I’ll find out as my weight goes down. One thing I know for sure is that people often don’t realise how blessed they are to be able to do everyday things without much effort. I guess until things change you don’t notice. Well I hope you like my quote for this week. It’s food for thought.