I’m staring at the sick bowl trying to stay calm. I just want to puke. The nausea is unbearable. I wish I could just get this over already. I am so unwell.
I have adrenal insufficiency. My cortisol levels are not right. In fact My adrenal symptoms are getting worse. My head hurts. The back of my eyeballs feel like they are about to explode. The pain across my head is severe. My legs and arms are aching. I can barely think.
What has caused my body to require more cortisol? Well the answer is pretty simple or is it? I appear to have a skin infection. The life saving steroids I take to keep me alive weaken my immune system and infections are all too common for me.
But there is something more going on. If it was just an infection I would be able to double dose and get through. There must be something else affecting me as my symptoms worsen and my blood pressure drops to the point I can no longer stand.
I am dizzy and weak and becoming dehydrated. I search my body for signs. What is going on? I notice a rash. This is not normal. Maybe I have a viral infection that I am unaware of.
No matter what the underlying cause, my medication is not sufficient. I need to increase my dose even more. The nausea is sweeping over me again. I need a break but this will take time.
I call my husband please help me. He is helpless. What can he do? He can’t take the pain away. He can’t will the nausea to leave as much as he would like.
I take comfort in knowing someone cares. Yes I am going through this but I am not going through it alone. My husband is by my side.
My eyes continue to hurt. Maybe if I go to sleep I can get some peace. I will just close my eyes and rest. What more can I do?
I know eventually this will pass. Yes it is hard to take but I can do this. Eventually the pain will leave and I will feel improved. I just have to ride the wave of adrenal insufficiency once more until my cortisol levels are stable and knowing I will improve gives me hope. Hope that I can make it through another crisis.
robin rue says
I am so sorry to hear about all the pain you are in. I sure hope it passes!
Kim Carberry says
Sending love and hugs! I hope it passes soon and you feel better xx
StressedMum (@stressedmum01) says
So sorry you are suffering, I hope the symptoms pass soon, it is not nice for the person who loves and cares about you to just watch helplessly from the side willing it to go away or in my case wishing we could swap so I can be the one who suffers x
I know that feeling. I am glad it’s me and not my child.
Bavarian Sojourn says
Oh gosh, poor you. That must be awful to have. I haven’t ever heard of it before, so thank you for making us aware of it. I hope you are better now…
Rhian Westbury says
I am so sorry to hear that you’re not feeling good again, I wish there was an easy way to ease your pain x
I did take pain relief and it helped.
Catherine Sargent says
I hope you start to feel better soon. When we don’t feel well, all we can do it take things one day at a time and stay positive.
Yes. I will take things one day and one step at a time.
Sarah Bailey says
Gosh what an awful time you are having with your health :(. It is awful having to deal with sickness day in and day out.
It is tough at the moment but i will get through.
GiGi Eats Celebrities says
I can tell you’re a VERY strong woman, so I know you can handle this. Just don’t try to push yourself TOO hard.
thanks. I will rest up and take a big break.
Liz Mays says
Oh yikes! I’ve never that level of pain and sickness before! I’m glad you have your husband there for support.
Yes he is a nice hubby and helps me a lot.
Pam Wattenbarger says
So sorry to hear that you have adrenal insufficiency. That sounds like it is really challenging.
M E L I S S A ?? (@fruity_flamingo) says
Oh no it sounds awful for you, I hope you get better soon
Oh lovely. I’m so sorry to hear how you are feeling. No one deserves that. I hope you feel better really soon xxx
Sometimes we have trials..this is my one. I can at least use it to help others with this condition.
Kelly Hutchinson (@KickingWKelly) says
I cannot imagine how much suffering you have gone through with this. I am sending positive energy to get you feeling better!
thanks so much.
AnnMarie John says
I’m so sorry you have to go through all the pain. I hope you feel better soon. I have no knowledge about adrenal insufficiency but I wish you the best in life.
thanks. That is why I share to help raise awareness.
Travel Blogger says
This sounds so awful! I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Sharing your story really helps others out there that are also facing a chronic illness. Good for you that you keep going!
Carol Cassara says
It’s never easy to battle an illness but I admire you for your strength and your determination to move past the pain. I’m sure you’re going to be amazing.
It is not easy. Thanks for the comments.
Wendy Polisi says
Well that is just no good at all! Stay strong Angela, you’re a tough cookie!
Thanks. I am a tough cookie. I can do this.
So so sorry to hear this. Hope you find healing soon.
Thankyou. I find writing my feelings down helps.
Toni | Boulder Locavore says
I’m so sorry you have to go through that pain. I hope you’ll feel better soon.
I am slowly improving. Thanks.
Honest Mum® (@HonestMum) says
I am so sorry you are dealing with this. You are incredibly strong and will improve again. Lots of love x
thanks Vicki 🙂
Hope you get better soon. Nothing worse than being sick. Stay strong 🙂 x
thanks so much.
Laura Dove says
Gosh that sounds awful. I am so sorry you have to go through this, I can relate though as I am still going through horrific health issues myself. I have a gastroscopy booked for tomorrow, another brain scan next week, cardiology and endocrinology the following week. I just want some answers, waiting around for them is just the worst. I hope you feel a little better today. xx
oh I hope you get your answers soon Laura. It is so tough being unwell isn’t it!
Shannon Gurnee says
Oh my gosh girl – that sucks! I’ve never heard of this before, but it sounds like a really terrible thing. Sending prayers.
Emily (@amummytoo) says
This sounds so horrid, it must make even the small stuff a struggle. Hope you’re feeling better soon and we’re all here if you need anything x
Louise x (@withlovefromlou) says
Oh, Angela. I cried reading this 🙁 I’m so sorry to hear the pain is getting worse. I hope it passes soon. Sending big hugs.
Oh no! This sounds horrible 🙁 feel so sorry that you have to endure this Angela. My mummy hates waking up with aches and couldn’t imagine having strong bouts of nausea on top of that! Stay strong xx
it has been tough recently.
Deborah Butler (@SuperBusyMum) says
Oh deary me, this is not good at all – feel better soon!
thanks I hope I do.
Elaine Livingstone says
your pains sound horrendous, not sure my grandson has the vocabulary to describe this if it was happening to him. Must be quite depressing to think this it is and things will not improve significantly for people like you. #Maybe one day they will find a better way to either self test or control the levels
I sure hope so!