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Mirror Mirror on the Wall, I’ll set my Goals and Achieve them All

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Mirror Mirror on the Wall

Mirror Mirror on the wall. This week has been Crap with a capital C. I know, I don’t usually use that word but I’ve been so so sick and it has been incredibly difficult physically and emotionally. I’ve slept and slept and cried and cried. I’ve travelled with a banging headache and nausea to attend appointments. I went to a ballet- which was the one positive- although I felt like Crap… my family loved it and it was worth it- writing a review in return for free tickets. You can’t get much better than that!

I try to be positive all the time but for just one week I feel sad, I feel down, I feel upset due to the fact my health has taken greater nose dive since September and I did not know it could get worse than it all ready was. I just feel like Crap and I want to crawl under the blanket and never come out!

But…..I’m a mum and I have a lovely daughter and I have to put on a brave face for her. I have a husband who needs a positive cheery wife, to help him get through this difficult time in our lives. I have to do it! (Be positive) for my family.

This week everything became too much and I could not cope… well I felt like I couldn’t cope. However I’ve had my days of throwing up and nausea and headaches and that’s not going to go away…… but the negativity has to.. it is not allowed to stay!!!!

I’m going to dust myself off and try once more to be positive and cope with this wretched illness. I will do my best for my family, for my daughter and keep on the fight. I’ll keep at my goals to get the right medical help.

There is so much that needs to be done and I will do it! One step one day at a time and if I’m too ill, ill rest and then get back on it when I wake. I have to- there is no giving up!

I have goals, blogging goals, family goals, Christmas goals, financial goals, health goals and I will set them and I will achieve them and even if it takes months and another few years I’ll keep fighting to get through this yucky time in my life.

I don’t want people to feel sorry for me, I just need a bit of encouragement to keep going.

And with that said, here is my quote of the week.

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23 Comments

  1. Stay strong my lovely!
    It’s so tricky to drag out the positives but your wonderful, positive drive is all you need to turn the corner.
    When I struggle to get through the days I just actively make myself focus on the good bits, asking:
    What was the best bit about today?
    What am I glad about?
    What am I looking forward to tomorrow?
    and slowly it seeps into your subconscious attitude!
    Good Luck!
    Abel x

    1. Great ideas Annabel. I’m thinking of writing some more “Gratitude Diaries posts” focusing on all the blessings in my life… it does help..your totally right!

  2. Angela, you are so brave to talk about your struggle and to be honest with your readers when you are sad. I know what you share is probably only a fraction of what you’re really going through. You have a great attitude, and remember that life is always changing, God still has more in store for you. Hope you and Sylvia feel better soon!

    1. Thanks Michelle. I have been getting some nasty criticism lately but that is to be expected when I share my illness on a blog. I’m not going to worry about what others think or say because they are not me and not in my shoes or going through my experience and as much as I want to get well to feel good. I want to get well for sylvia so I’ll fight and do what I can for her and stuff the people who tell me to get over it OR stop complaining or say wait your turn just like everyone else. I will do my best to get well and raise awareness for me and for others- once i’m over my bad day!

  3. So sorry to hear about your week Angela. Honestly, I think sometimes we need a good cry! Now its time to pick yourself up and keep on keeping on – you WILL get there! I love your poem 🙂 #candidcuddles
    Debbie

  4. To be positive in the face of adversity takes great strength and courage…you are among the bravest! Keep fighting, stay strong and don’t forget to be kind to yourself too! Setting small manageable goals on the road to achieving greater goals can be a wonderful motivator. xx Kerry-Ann #candidcuddles

  5. Sorry you had such a tough week. Love that you have made a positive message out of this, and I think you do a great job doing the best you can for your daughter despite the difficulties you face. #anythinggoes

  6. Popping over from #candidcuddles =) That is an inspiring quote and you inspire many! Very sorry for your struggles. I hope you find comfort in that your positivity and perseverance motivate others. Come share your crafts, DIY’s, recipes & up-cycles at #2usestuesday (Mon PM to Fri PM) & your pinnable images at #Pinbellish (Fri AM to Tues AM) over at Sarah Celebrates if you don’t already!

  7. Girl, I am so there with you. Right there, beside you. Feel me? I’m holding your hand, from my bed, where I sit, for far too many hours, days, weeks. I too hate my illness and all it has taken from me and my family. And the greedy demon disease will keep on taking. It’s been a rough week here too, stressful, I have a stress related disease, it’s an every revolving circle. Isn’t it? But you can do this, it just takes 20 seconds of insane courage. Over and over again. You can do this, it may take longer than you like. It may be harder for you, but then you have all the more to be proud of. I know you can do it. I believe in you. And I’m giving you a really big hug of encouragement, pride, and empathy. You got this!!!

  8. Love this quote Ang. Stay strong & positive as much as you can but you wouldn’t be human if you didn’t get upset & break down. I have had a rough week & it’s nothing compared to what you are dealing with. You have every right to have bad days or weeks. Thanks so much for always linking up with #candidcuddles & for being a blogger friend! x

    1. Thanks Becky. I hope your feeling better. It’s tough isn’t it blogging and parenting when sick…but we cant stop parenting can we..not for illness… once we are a mother we are always a mother! 🙂 Angela x

  9. Aaaw! So refreshingly honest but also inspiring!

    One of the most interesting books I ever read which I still dip into when things are c*** is ‘Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting’ by Lynn Grabhorn. She wrote a couple of others but this, her first book, was groundbreaking. Although not a literary masterpiece, I recommend it.

    Wishing you all the best.

    1. Thanks. Sometimes like can be hard. That was a hard day/week when I wrote this piece and I do like to be honest when I write. Thanks for stopping by. I appreciate your comments.

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