Feeling Down And Very Unwell Chronic Illness
Well it’s not an easy thing to discuss online but I have been feeling really down and very unwell over the past month. I’m not sure what it is and I can’t quite figure it out but I have been feeling very unwell for about 4 weeks and things are getting very hard for me.
I have been struggling to concentrate and feeling very upset. I struggle to write my blog posts and I have found myself having more headaches and feeling more sad and upset than usual. This is not normal for me. I can usually cope well with the illness and conditions I have but I just feel totally overwhelmed.
I told my husband, I need a break. I need to stop blogging and just have lots of bed rest for a while but the reality is I can’t stop. I need to blog to help cover the cost of life dependent medication which I cannot get via the NHS so I don’t feel I have a choice. I also love my blog, I just feel like I have no drive, no motivation and my head hurts too much.
So I have made an action plan. I have three posts scheduled for this week. I am going to set them to go out on the days they are due and cut back on any promotion work I would usually do. I think I will take a week off from Instagram and daily promotion work and do the bare minimum I can to keep this blog plodding along. I will rely on my trusty VA to take over for the week as I cannot do this right now.
I don’t want to feel this way and I am off to the GP to see what is causing me to feel so sick. I have nausea, headaches, cannot focus and just feel really sad. I may be becoming a little depressed in fact but we shall see what happens.
The good news is I have my family and my dogs and it’s my birthday on Friday. I am overwhelmed and sad but grateful for what I have. Sometimes I just need to say how I am feeling and this is it.
So yes, this is me and my life and my goal is to get through the next week and rest up. I am going to do some art work in my bed. I am enjoying drawing and John bought me some lovely things for my birthday including a book I have been wanting for a while and I will try to enjoy this during the week. I’m really happy about getting this book.
I will get over this difficult patch but just saying, I am down and need to rest.