Feeling Anxious And Stressed Out
I didn’t want to admit it but I’ve been feeling quite anxious the past few days. I’m not too sure what has caused it. I guess there is a lot going on and life has just been really stressful. As always I am coping with a chronic illness which can really knock my energy from me and at the end of the day I seem to be finding myself feeling burnt out and having thoughts like, “I can’t cope”, “everything is too much”, and “I have so much to do”. People say I look great and I am looking nice but inside I feel so different.
I know I have been having quite negative thoughts and the truth is I can cope, I have strategies in place and ways to do this. Yet I continue to feel overwhelmed and stressed. I know there has been a lot going on lately. I have had a few friends die recently. My parents returned to New Zealand and I am missing them so much. My daughter is having some difficulties at school and I am trying to be there for her and help her. Then there is the house work and my never ending list of things I need to and would like to do.
It’s just too much and it’s making me feel stressed out. So what will I do? I will write a list and work on it one at a time. I will pace myself and rest inbetween tasks. My priority will be Sylvia and my health, everything else comes after that.
I am going to London in a few days for BritMums. I am so excited about this. It will be a four day adventure. I can’t do a journey like that in one day as my health could not manage it, so I leave on Wednesday and have Thursday and Friday to rest and recover before the big day. I am looking forward to meeting friends and attending learning sessions but at the same time, I am quite anxious about it.
I have thoughts like, “What if people don’t like me”, “what if I have no one to talk to”. Again I know this is not going to happen. I have friends and people I want to meet but there but that anxious part of me saying, “what if, what if”. I want it to stop and am not sure why or how this has happened but it has.
I will need to try and stay calm and breath. I need to simply rest and take a break for a day or two. I know I must be burnt out yet writing this down is my way of figuring out what is going on and it’s therapeutic and helpful to me.
I am so excited. I am going to meet up with my friend Ana De Jesus from Faded Spring. She is a good friend of mine and I am looking forward to this. I am looking forward to meeting my friend Laura Summers for the first time ever on Saturday. I am looking forward to going on the London Eye.
I just have to find a way to not feel stressed and manage this week and I can do this. It’s hard when you feel so stressed out and as a result anxious. I am not sure why I am like this but I will deal with it and keep moving forward. This is an important week in my life. I am going to talk to my friend about the issues my daughter is having at school and get some suggestions on what to do.
I hope things improve. I’m sure they will. They always do but tonight I am feeling stressed and just wanted to get it all out. I know I’m not the only one.