Last week my mum came over from Yorkshire to spend time together and help me sort through all my daughters clothes. Ever since Sylvia was a baby, I have collected all her clothes. The reality is I always hoped I would have more children and so I kept the gorgeous newborn baby girl dresses which I owned just in case. In fact my mum was quite shocked to see I had almost 9 years worth of children’s clothing and we had a grand time sorting through it all.
It was really difficult for me to let go and give away all the clothes I have stored. I always dreamed of having a large family but due to health and fertility issues it’s just not going to happen. I do hope to have another child one day and If I am blessed with another child at some point then I will simply have to start over.
I sorted the clothing into two piles. Items for my sister and items for my cousin’s daughter. My sister in New Zealand has 4 daughters and so I sent a lot of my daughter’s clothes to my sister. I know when you have six kids it’s not easy on the pocket and so sending nice clothing to Deborah was something I was more than happy to do. It’s not cheap to send items to New Zealand however my mum and Dad are returning home to New Zealand and so they can take a few boxes of household items including clothes tax free.
Usually a small parcel can cost about £40 but we are able to send some huge boxes at £35 each so I sent everything I could to help out my sister. I also sent a load of clothes for my cousin in Barnsley. Her daughter is two years younger than Sylvia. I think it is great to be able to help out family especially when finances are tight.
Seeing my daughter’s clothes and everything she has worn over the years really was a trip down memory lane. I saw this cute baby blue dress which Sylvia once had and it made me feel all clucky and wish I had a baby to dress it in. I also found my frog dress which is my number one dress which Sylvia wore as a toddler. I decided to keep it in a box as a keep sake. I did keep one or two items but now everything is gone, I feel relief, sadness and Joy.
The relief I feel is due to the huge declutter I had. It’s great to have cleared out the room and have space once more. The sadness I felt is due to shattered dreams and hopes of having lots of children. The joy comes from being able to give and support my own family.
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I do love girls dresses as you may very well know and Sylvia and I will continue to do Sylvia’s Style posts on the blog and collect the next size clothes. I will store these and if I am fortunate to travel to New Zealand in a year or two we will then take the next size items for my nieces.
If I am lucky enough to ever fall pregnant or adopt a child then I can always start over in the clothing department. I can also look at gorgeous baby outfits and dresses and maybe even buy some for friends who are blessed to be growing their families.
It can be tough at times seeing those around me grow whilst we remain a family of three but I am grateful to have one child and know some people don’t even have one. Sylvia is my world. Adding to the family would be amazing but if not that is okay and we will give Sylvia the best opportunities and try to bless the lives of those around us instead.